Recaps, nerdiness, and procrastination.

Well, Let me quickly recap the events of this week for me here in Woodbury.

Monday, I forgot what I did… though i remember going to the gym and doing the P90X thing

Tuesday I remembered i stayed in studio for the whole night and got 2 and a half hours on my desk working on my studio project.

Wednesday night was the same thing, except I also went to the gym for the P90X around 10… I also returned home 5:30AM, showered and slept till 10 for class…

Thursday… I spent the whole day in studio except when I had class. Working on my drawings, which I must admit, look pretty sexy… XD
But yeah, I stayed in studio all day and all night. After all the project was due Friday at 12:30.
One of the teachers, one of the two who critiqued me later Friday came in the studio around 8:30 with donuts and raised out morale. I also watched, well, listened to is more like it, the Hurt Locker. What else can I say about that night that I can actually remember? I remember working a lot and slacking off less than I usually would. I took sips of vodka over the hours, though not enough to get me drunk: about 2 shots over the span of a couple hours. I think it kept me a little warm… Or I’l just imagining things. I’m also glad that I keep a toothbrush and floss in studio. An apple too.

Around 10, I went back to shower and freshen up before the final review. I returned to studio at 11, and finalized everything by 11:30. I luckily got a 30 minute nap that seriously refreshed me for the review to come later. I was actually happy to go fourth… because that means that I could sleep for the rest of the review, which meant about 3 hours… >.> I was SERIOUSLY knocked out though… That’s all I can say.After sleeping an hour and half, my friend and I went to get coffee, and hung out in studio, ditching the review. After everything, I went back to my dorm, freshened up, and webcammed with Julie until 10 or 10:30 and slept.

The next day I was awoken by my angry friend cause apparently my cell phone died and the alarm didnt go off, and we were supposed to carpool to a field trip. At least I got a g0od 11 hours of sleep. We arrived at the field trip, which is meant to be a supplement for our next project. Those damn professors… Just giving us another project after having us turn one in. Haha But it’s all fun.
After the trip, My friend and I headed over to IHOP and ate with a group of 9 or so other students. Fun? Yes, and a lot of coffee too… Haha
After that, I headed down to Irvine to hang out with two cousins Long and Tommy. And when I mean hang out, I mean play games and watch Zombieland and The Hurt Locker. Hell, me and Tommy stayed in Long’s apartment room. We played Mass Effect 2 until 5 in the morning. We talked about how they both have either no or extremely low interest in girls. We talked about games, anime, and movies. And there I was saying to myself again, “damn.. we’re nerds.” But hell, It’s fun. =D

Well, I woke up at 12 to see Long studying for his test on Monday, which made me remember a conversation we had last night.

Long,”my greatest fear is being shot on the way to my final because I wouldnt be able to do it.”
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“Hmm… If you were on your way to finals and were raped, would you still go to finish the finals?”

Me:”I’d beat the fucker up then go to my finals.”

Tommy:” well you cant cause the guy raped you, so that means he beat you up”

Long:” I dont think i’d beat the guy up either way, that gives me even less time to do my final”

Me:”Fine, I’ll hire other guys to rape him.”

Long and Tommy: *laughs their asses off* “damn, that’s hilarious, hiring a bunch of guys to rape a rapist, what if he likes it?”

Me:”Then we pull out the dildo with box cutters stuck in it”

Long and Tommy: *laughs even more and calls me a sick sadistic bastard*

Then we talked even more about that subject and how you could legally get away with killing the guy after that situation… >.>

Seems perfectly normal to me, and funny too. Haha

So anyways, we ate really cheap sushi… and i mean REALLY cheap. It’s okay though… but its really fucking cheap. I’m serious… haha

Then around 3:30 or 4 i got back here and am now procrastinating on my work…

Okay, haha

I know the first part was boring, but at least it got interesting near the end.

Time to get back to work.

-Martini (self proclaimed nerd XD)

XD

nevermind. I got baked catfish with steamed broccoli and some weird fried rice stuff
XD

No idea what to title this.

Okay. today in about an hour i have to turn in a project for studio.

Tuesday night i slept 2.5 hours
Wednesday night i slept 4 hours
Last night i slept both of those combined then multiplied by zero. And so far the food consumption is the same as today’s sleep rate. Not to mention that I am still somewhat sore from working out over the week.

I suppose I’m lucky? I know a couple guys who haven’t slept for two nights in a row including last night.

Well, I am done. All I can do now is wait, though I am strangely not that hungry. Perhaps I’ll just eat the orange that Norvik gave me…

Haha

-Martini

Why life sucks and why I love it so much more

After going to bed at 2:30, I would think that I would sleep all the way through 10 or something, but not this morning. I find myself waking up at 8:00 and just lying there for the next 30 minutes semi-conscious in my own thoughts: wondering, contemplating, and thinking.

Next thing I know I jump out of bed at 8:25 and begin writing in my journal, reflecting about my thoughts, and I type until 9:10 and how I am here in my blog reflecting partly on what I wrote on my journal.

Life is so full on uncertainty…

It’s all a gamble. Everything you do, especially in love, is all a gamble. And either you get lucky, or you lose whatever you put in. All my life, I thought that hard work and perseverance was enough to get you wherever you want, but after coming down here to Woodbury, my experiences here and the people I work with changed everything. It’s 49% hard work and 51% luck. That’s all there is to it right? Who knows, this is my interpretation of their words. My opinion is still being developed.

Speaking of life: What else is there? You solve one problem, and another one comes up or the one you thought you solved comes back to bit you in the ass. You just keep pushing on, through the problems that life throws at you, whether it be with love or war. You keep going on and just hope that in the end, you will get a happy ending. Haha, This is where the luck comes in and decides whether she wants to let you have what you want or whether she wants to take everything away from you. Or even a combination of both.

I suppose what I’m trying to say in this post is this:
I hate so much how I am not in control if live as much as I want to be. I hate how uncertain life is. I hate how everything has the potential of turning against you at any time. But I love it all nonetheless because it is the only thing that lets you know you’re alive. If that makes any sense…

Haha, I think that was my first serious post in a while.

Okay, now off to architecture studio I go.

Saurav!

I Love You Saurav!
XD

dammit…… i despise you so much,.

exit now if you are offended by harsh words… >..<

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i dont want to read your 8 pages of unreadable bullshit
i dont want to decipher whatever fucking warped form of english you are speaking
fuck you and what you think modernism is
douche……….

Currently addicted to…

tall soy toffee nut latte with and extra shot and extra pump of toffee nut…
XD

Also addicted to girls and robots…
XD

Soy Milk…

Holy crap… Vanilla flavored soy milk is soooo freaking good…… >.>

Finished a half gallon in 2 days…….

haha

I wonder if Ralph’s sells almond or rice milk…

XD

Returning to school soon…

4 weeks… 4 magical weeks. Magical indeed in that it just vanishes right in front of your eyes and leave you with a blur of what happened. But if you reminisce or try to remember what happens, only the best memories come to mind, only the feelings you experienced arise, and only then you think to yourself, “Fuck, i would rather do this than go back to school.”

Well, that’s for me at least.

These past 4 weeks of winter break have been fun to say the least. I don’t really feel like going over them in detail to the 3 or 4 people who actually read this blog, and who should already know how my break was… Haha

The most memorable days, however, I will mention cause I myself seem to have gotten lost in my memories… Haha

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Christmas in the Park was a tradition we always did, though this time it was much more fun… Maybe cause we didn’t carol this time and just hung out and had fun… We left downtown earlier than usual for a burrito that would make Mandingo cry… After dinner was also very very fun… Haha followed by a night of playing Halo 3 with friends.

Sweet tomatoes with the guys and an extensive game of truth or dare later was VERY memorable……… alas I shouldn’t reveal too much about it here, other than that I am good at stripping… or at least much better than Bao…

Oh, and to nam, “WHOOOOO!!!!!!!” XD

Wednesday December 30th was also pretty memorable. Downtown, ice skating, and surprisingly enough, stayed at Julie’s house a bit past midnight with her mom there… XD

The next day, the 31st, I hung out with Teresa, Bao, Kevin, Saurav, and Vikki. Nam was a douch that day… XD
Sushi followed by a tense car ride only added up to Teresa getting trouble with her parents. Haha. I stayed home instead of going down to LA with the rest of my family cause I already live down there. Spent new year’s eve at Saurav’s hosue eating indian food, drinking root beer, playing darts, and Stratego…

January 1st, Saurav drove me home around 1 or 2, where showered, brushed my teeth, and slept until 4:45 or so… >.>
Picked up Julie at 5 and spent the rest of the day up to 6 or so at my place, watching tv, sleeping, and other acts that may or may not land me in jail… eh, I’m not breaking any laws yet… XD Follow that up with church and Modern Warfare 2 with friends until 4 or 5AM, and you’ve got yourself a great start to a new year.

Thursday January 7th, Me, Teresa, and Kevin went to Starbucks around 8.30(i forgot the time…) and talked there until they closed down at 10:30. Me and teresa then just went home and talked until past midnight… forgot the time again… XD

And finally, Friday, January 8th, Us three and Bao went to Starbucks again and talk talk talked until going out to cha cha sushi… It was a great meal cause of the uni sashimi… They gave me 6 pieces instead of 4. XD
Then around 3:15 or so, I spent my last great hours in San Jose with Jules.
Drove down to my uncle’s place in huntinton beach then…

The next day I spent some hours with my cousin and moved back into the dorms

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Coming back to school after 4 weeks felt so strange, and yet at the same time, so normal to me…

Now I can’t but help but think like when I was in High school, about what would happen to us all later on in the future. Would we all still be friends like we were this past break? Or would the strains and distance of school tear us apart? Its not something I thought about in a while, but over the break and even now those thoughts fester in my mind… Haha
I welcome and accept change because it would bring many new experiences into my life and because it is inevitable, but I’ll admit that I also dread it, and how it may change my past relations and previous aspects of life… Maybe this was what was bothering me earlier…?

Eh, still cant pinpoint it… Screw it. I’ll just fill up my time with architecture instead of worrying about it. Haha, Just delay the inevitable. Its the best solution when solutions cant be found.

XD

Anyways, I better go to studio and set up my desk before classes start.

It’s been a fun break guys, hope to do it again later!

Reality sucks

The past three weeks of my break from architecture have been, to say the least, interesting. I’ve had so much fun hanging out with Saurav, Bao, Kevin, Teresa, Nam, and of course, Julie. Since coming back, I’ve had so much fun with friends and family, and somehow, despite all this, there is just something wrong about all of this… something wrong about this lifestyle. Sure, I enjoy going out every single day and groping my guy friends, but its just such a drastic change from my Woodbury life that it just steers me the wrong way. Since coming back my lifestyle has lost all continuity and equilibrium that I had in college. When with them, I feel so in place and that everything is right in the world, but when I’m alone, I reflect back upon everything and it all seems wrong…

Maybe I’m dreading the fact that I have to go back to school and leave this city soon.

Or that coming back here is just so much different from my previous lifestyle that something is just wrong.

Or maybe it is simply because nobody is home and I am lonely…

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I thought blogging about this would help me pinpoint the problem, but I guess not, so that’s all I will say for now.

Haha

Can’t wait to get back to Woodbury and yet at the same time, dreading leaving San Jose.

But one thing’s for sure, I will miss the fuck out of everyone and the fun times we had.

=D